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Friday, April 27, 2007

i wonder, when will my life will ever be sweet n smooth? problems are coming one after another for me. ive been having problems with achip. n then recently ive been having with min. n now, he doesnt seemed to be interested in saying hi to me animore. n wateva i sae now is just going to make ani situations got worst. even if i meant it as a joke, it wud turn out to be a rude thing! urgh! conflicts between mom n me, coz she didnt let me go for STEP, but tat was over already. i thought. n at this moment, the stress adds on as EXAMS ARE ONLY 2 DAYS AWAY! my goodness! oh gosh!

i want to start studying, but i think its a little too late. n i cant possibly concentrate in class, nor at home because of these problems. i thought i had overcomed all, but i still feel bothered somehow. people doesnt show tat they hate me or anything, i just dont feel right. however, i noe there are peeps who are hating me at this moment. perhaps, min.

n hakim just cant be bothered animore, i guess. n fortunately, i simply dun bother either.
well, i think this is all i haf got to sae. im speechless to wat has been happening aroun me laa. bye!

baby, you're the best part of my day. 8:16 PM

Friday, April 20, 2007

on wednesday, my school had our sports day. memories of 2e1 06' came back. its sad to see tat memories are left as memories, n not practiced animore. frens are living their own lives now, they've got new and wonderful frens now i guessed.

well aniwae, spending the 5+ hours with 3e4 isnt tat bad either. nor was it oh-so-great. but i believe it wud be better next year. there shud be more class spirit next year. n i aimed to join lots n lots of events next year. yay!

okok, so after the sports day, i dropped by aliah's house to pay her a visit from her dislocated disc bone, i think. she looks alrite, just a little pain felt by her. so, GET WELL SOON BABE!

so, tat was about it. nothing much happened tat day. oh yeah, n tat day, i found out tat hasif has ALREADY stead with IDA!! omg! i swear it looks disgusting for me, AND the rest. but anihow, its his love. suits himself laa!

ive taken some pics during the sports day. here are they:

baby, you're the best part of my day. 9:37 PM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

COMMENDATION DAY!!!

this year's is the best. even though ive been quite a loner in guides, but i still managed to make lots n lots of memories!! yay! ive had pics taken with fifi, nazrul, michelle, jason, weixin, naufal.. syiok man!

the experiences every year is always different. spending it with new friends, new style, new duty. everything is all so beautiful n sweet. i remember, making michelle call firdaus asking him to come down n take picture with me n nazrul!! ahh!! i was nervous, coz its nazrul we're toking abt! haha. but i stood with fifi. then nazrul was like "hey! wat abt me? wat abt me?" haha! cute laa! not to forget, ive grab some photos with gop(naufal), michelle n jason. haha! best laa!

here are some of them:

baby, you're the best part of my day. 10:53 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

today was fine. ms marlina didnt came, the releave teacher was extremely cool, tat the boys practically 'shooed' the other releave teacher who was suppose to releave the 2nd period for english. todae i can see tat our class has the unity. but theres just not enough spirit yet. it'll come, im sure.

ok, so tat was lesson times.

guides who are not involved in the parade tmr has got to turn up for the meeting just now, which includes me n michelle. n weixin n alisa n pris who are involved in the parade tmr, but still had to come, coz mdm ng says so. well, the juniors were outside doing sing-along while me, weixin, michelle n some others were doing some camp preparations which is coming at the end of may. yay! after tat, michelle went to the back of the spiral staircase to teach some of the sec ones some footdrill. while me, weixin, alisa, pris, stef n senior desiree kinda gossiped about michelle. but hey, most of it comes out from their mouths ok. i was there just to listen n laugh along. heheh. ok, FINE!

so after guides, i went to whitesands to meet up with amina n shahidah. did some window shopping, n then went straight home. darn it, i got 6 tests next week. mati laa seyy. 3 tests on monday. 2 tests on tuesday. n one test on thurs. wahh, life is so luxurious-NOT!

baby, you're the best part of my day. 8:43 PM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

eyloo!! yup, its been quite some time since the last entry.. ive been kinda busy with school, many major events are coming n done with. n tests just has to come at this moment of the term. haiyoo.. but the major events are the ones tat made my day. like the sports heats yesterday, i got to be with mr.m . n we happened to exchanged our love tat day. haha. i should noe wat i mean. heheh. but tat day too kinda broken the bonds between us 4. its all abt achip laa. n this 2 gals. one is fine with me. but this other one, shes the bitch man. leave our achip alone or we'll get u.

okae, tat was yesterday.

so today, school had their last practice(i think) for our 14th commendation day. i cudnt join in the parade this year so i was assigned to do the reception. aiyoo. but aniwae, the GOH people are so CUTE!! argh!! mr.n! im so into u! heheh. but mr.?? is cute too alrite. but he is in sec 2 laa seyy. haiz.. heheh.

n well, i sometimes wonder whether all these while, the memories n actions tat we both had done together, ever meant aniting to u. i wud realie appreciate it if u cud just stop treating me like im ures, wen u dun even haf the slightest feelings for me. if only u cud see tat ure hurting me, treating me this way wen ure heart is so obviously with another girl. haiz.

baby, you're the best part of my day. 8:19 PM

Monday, April 02, 2007

gosh! u guys are soo getting on my nerves!! argh! well its all about the prank he made yesterday, it was april fools day... =_="... n, i was the type who's not realie into these kinda stuffs. so i gave jai 3 warnings to stop tat prank or i wont tok to him animore. n he chose to abide those warnings, n there u go, im not talking to him in sch todae. n, lamely, he has to share it with shila, n nabil just had to fixed his ears to the conversation. n just a few minutes ago, he asked me wat was happening. n here is how the SUMMARY of it goes;

NABIL: hey, why arent u talking to jai?

ME: u wanna noe, ask him urself. he was the one who created all these things, he was the one at fault, he was the one who made me to be like this[carac], so he shud definitely noe better.

NABIL: tell me laa

ME: go ask him ureself!

NABIL: no wonder they say ure carac, tknk share.

ME: hell-llo!! im not carac ok! just because i chose not to share it with u doesnt mean im carac! ure just lame! im in no mood ok! especially wen i got to noe tat people are toking abt me behind my back!

NABIL: alaa, wateva la. i getting married soon, n i got better things to do then to care abt other people's stuffs. brb, i wanna chat with my fiance.

ME: LAME! married? like, haha! fiance? dun be such a lame ass can?? ure only 15, n u once told me tat u arent into girls animore. next time, make sure tat e words coming out from ure mouth are true.

NABIL: wat i meant by my fiance is MATHS.

ME: gosh! tats even lame!! please laa, im not into lame thing ok!!

NABIL: no wonder u haf problems with them, uve got no sense of humour.

ME: wat kinda shit are u guys in???? i told u im in no mood! are u dumb or ur just plain idiot??

NABIL: if im an idiot, i wont get promoted to sec 3. mentang2 3e4, nk carac uh pat sini!

like hell-llo!! was has it got to do with my class?? dun u EVER, involve my class in this alrite! argh! tats it for todae, or someting bad might happen!!

baby, you're the best part of my day. 11:30 PM

Sunday, April 01, 2007

yesterday:

i got so fucked up by michelle. n i still am. she was practically controlling me, embarassing me in front of the juniors, pissing me off n definitely testing my patience. there was this once, we had to teach the sec1s to start the fire using charcoals n firestarter. after tat, they were supposed to try doing it on their own in groups, to make sure they understood the procedures. aniway, they were divided into 3 groups. i was in charge of one, my job was just to guide them. it went on well, they cud start the fire and all. it was all neat n tidy before. but theres this one gal, who loves to blow the fire(supposed to blow wen theres no fire), when the fire is already blazing. as a result, it got into a mess. n the fire moved to the side. n michelle came n said:

MICHELLE: aiyoh. amirah, u see lah. why very messy. the fire also at the side. very dangerous u noe!

ME: wat? i didnt do it, it was them. they were the ones who kept playing with the fire. why are u scolding me??

MICHELLE: ya, but ure suppose to guide them! wahlau eh u!

ugh! i swear i cud haf throw her into the fire. n well, the juniors felt guilty n apologised to me. but she still continued the blowing. ugh!

there was another part. weixin asked me to check on the sec2s, on their 90 degrees turn. it was practices for commendation day. i worked with weixin, observing n correcting the juniors. she asked me to help her coz there are many of them for her to handle alone, n also i didnt need to practice for myself, on MC, i cant go on parades. michelle was at the other side, training n teaching the new stuffs to the sec1s. wen they are all dismissed, she joined me n weixin. at tat time, the sec2s were on their push-up position coz they failed to follow her intructions.. n michelle came saying,

MICHELLE: eh, why are all of u on the ground?? u ask u all to do this one? weixin, u ah?

WEIXIN: ya laa. they keep on repeating their mistakes.

MICHELLE: but still, u didnt hafta punish them mah.

WEIXIN: then u want them to go on commendation day with this kind of standard isit???

MICHELLE: okok.

see, isnt she irritating. people noe wat they are doing. n so the training went on. i was kinda in charge of the pumping section. n she just hafta join in n kinda took over. ok fine, so i went back to work with weixin again. but she was blocking my view.

ME: michelle, can u move aside pls. i cant see their turn.

MICHELLE: u cannot move meh?? wahlau!

ME: theres bags all around me, how u expect me to move!

MICHELLE: u checking on them, ure 90 degrees perfect already meh??

i chose to ignore her. fuck laa.

baby, you're the best part of my day. 12:37 AM