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Monday, July 30, 2007

tralalala....

i feel so carefree today, though there are things bothering me in the head and in the mind and in the heart. heh. i feel so happy that i managed to complete my homework by 9PM! is that like a WOW thing or what! hahahah! okok. and i managed to make myself stay awake, instead of heading for the bed the moment i come back from school.

i love stefanie. hehe, why the comment out of the blue? im not sure myself. :D

alaa, till here laa.

tata peeps!

baby, you're the best part of my day. 9:18 PM

Saturday, July 28, 2007

hey..

i think, theres not much for me to update now, since that most things are back to normal, EXCEPT for the results. haiya. tests and exams suck big time laa.

i went out the whole day. went out arnd 1, to go find my stuff from POPULAR BOOKSTORE with amina mastura. and then after that, i head on to somerset, orchard road to watch the horror movie with kakak, khalid, baddiew. ALONE, is the title. the movie is damn nice, i swear. u guys out there should catch it anitime ur free. realie, i recommend it.

after the movie, we went to macdonalds, but end up with only nurul eating. haha. okae, not farnie. so, somehow or rather, coincidentally, aiz and nazzie was at lucky plaza too. and she came by macD, and we chat along. and more happened la. malas nak ceritakan seme. hehe!

perhaps till here only la. im realie tired. and theres madrasah tmr, DAMN!

tata peeps. :)

baby, you're the best part of my day. 10:50 PM

Thursday, July 26, 2007

i just came back from school. i think, school has been fine. im understanding topics better, but perhaps its too late by then. im already failing my tests. i failed my chem, maths. all single digit number! gosh! i noe its bad, SHUT UP! its realie not easy okae. with teachers changing here and there. it takes time to get use to the new teachers.

other than that, life's been okae. i somehow managed to sleptover at iqa's house yesterda night. and end up going to school late, coz the bus that iqa mati2 nak naek came late! shhh! she's afraid mama marah! hahah. but its not my fault sey. we kua very awal. but the bus yang lambat. so dont blame me. haha, doesnt matter la. all i need to do was to write 160 lines and got a record. oh wells.

perhaps till here. TATA peeps! :)

i love my fellow guiders. <3

baby, you're the best part of my day. 3:34 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

ARGH!!! i hate my life la, can???!?

its always full of regrets tau. the story is, i had my appointment just now in the afternoon. after everything has been settled, check here and there, the doctor asked me whether i would like to help out in an interview by the BERITA HARIAN, about eye infection. the doctor decided to ask me cause ive been there. i want laa!! i was so excited when she told me abt it. but mom just had to spoil the excitement! the opportunity was there, wide and clear for me, to be in the paper for a day, sharing my experience, and also gaining experience of being interviewed, but she spoiled it. i wanted to reply the doctor with a huge YES, but she interupted with a no!

damn it laa!

update more when i have the mood! arggghh!!!

baby, you're the best part of my day. 6:56 PM

Friday, July 20, 2007

yo! heh. ok, i just came back from hanging out with US!! im so happy, though we didnt talk much like we used to. just singing here and guitars there. :) dont worry mira. more outings coming up soon and we'll get use to each other back again, and everything will be just fine.

entrepeniur(im clueless on how it spells) fair, was great. it wasnt that much of a fun, but great. i hope we make lots of profits though. i thought the money will get back to us, but recently, the love whom has walked with me to the void deck, told me that he heard that it was for charity. i was like, "noooo. its for us." and he was like, "really? i was told it was for charity! god, i feel so cheated!". hhahahaha! he's so HOT! im so happy to meet him. he is just the best guy ever! *meltz*. :D

ok then. till here. ive got to go siap2 for the farewell party for the seniors. it ends at night!:(
anibodie cares to fetch me hommee? ;)

baby, you're the best part of my day. 4:15 PM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

hola~

hehe. well, i think the friend problems are SETTLED. atlast. well atleast to me. heh. :)
somehow, i think ms lie has gone out of her mind! shes totalie insane!! she sets the maths
paper so difficult!! SUMPAH i couldnt do it. i just put what i think is acceptable, though i noe is not. gosh, i cudve cried right on the spot sey. but i held back my tears. gees. and the chem test
was oh so SUSAH LA! are the teachers out of their minds or wat??!?!?!? goodness!

but the moment me and amina stepped on the ground right outside the school gate, our craziness has start to arouse! really it did. we started being all crappy and left all the school problems back at the gate. tmr go sch then amek alek. haha! ok, LAME!

okaela, till here. ive got an autobiography to write. TOODLES!~

baby, you're the best part of my day. 11:08 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

"what is the impression that u get when u see your friend has his/her tongue pierced? a really close one."

that was the question i asked Bad. and she replied : "idiotic"

perhaps, that was what i thought too. i mean, piercing doesnt seem like a whole lot of sin to me, if it was at the ears. but aniwhere else, i just find it unneccessary. when i saw her tongue pierced, my reaction was "WHAT??!??!". fancy her not telling me she got her tongue pierced. and wat made me double the shock was, she didnt seemed the kinda girl who would go pierce here and there type. as long as i can remember, she wasnt even the type who wud even think of piercing anywhere else but the ears! GOD!

anw, the assembly just now was COOL! , besides the part where the person kept singing and reciting lame poems which make no sense, to me and ikah and amina, atleast. but the most fun part was seeing the teachers making a whole fool out of themselves! especially the principal!! to think that he wud go up the stage and reveal the lame side of himself! schoolmates, u noe what i mean!

i planned to have the four of us back together again this coming friday, right after the fair! weee! cant wait, both for the fair and the outing! YAY!

so, till here. :)

baby, you're the best part of my day. 3:59 PM

Friday, July 13, 2007

updates updates updates.

12.07.07:

for this week, we had guides on thursday, instead of the usual friday. dont ask me why, im clueless too. anihow, it seemed like an urgent meeting, and sure is. weixin wanted to gather the sisters. the meeting was all about reflecting on ourselves, an d also us committing to guides, confessions on how we think guides is and stuffs like that. the meeting somehow was the 1st that got most of us emo-ed. weixin, nisa, valarie, me, and some other cried. its just too touching/sad laa. well the fact is that, we heard that the principal wants us to combine unit with the scouts, which we all totalie protest. coz we personally believe that we shud haf our own cca, and not ruled by them. mr.principal even sanngup to pay the girl scouts uniform for us. why seyy? and i heard from alisa too, that the HQ didnt like our unit. why seyy?? we had been wondering why other schs had more badges than us. and the answer i heard was, other schs was trained by the HQ, while my unit was only trained by teachers. thats why we got few badges. why seyy? how can the HQ possibly hate us? we are just a small group of people.. hmm.. wonders wonders wonders..

and oh, my heart was crushed TWICE todae. goodness! i saw mr.N in the canteen, with another girl. they seemed like matair la, though they didnt kissed or hughug or aniting like that. just seeing them together makes me so confident that they are a couple! argh! coz they arent even closely connected, and seeing them together must have meant someting. they cant possibly be cousins, cause their races doesnt match at all. mr.N has the accent of orang putih, and is in tech class, and in NCC. while this girl has chinese blood, i suppose, is in express class, and is in BAND. so they arent connected at all! dammit la, i missed my chance.
n then after sch, i saw HIM and her. she is like purposely making me feel jealous or someting. eh, bodoh, i dont care la. though he crushed my heart, it wasnt his fault, coz i didnt make him aware of it. ur just lucky that u got him as ur bf. but i got him as my bestfren, which is way better. i got the freedom, PLUS, him. when u, only got him, but not realie the freedom. too bad.

13.07.07:

urmm, school is going fine, for some subjects only i supposed. fnn was fun laa. we actualie slacked alot with mdm zaidah, but we still was doing our work. get it? theres this one period wen we are supposed to discuss about tests and all, but it turned out to be a reflection session. both on life and studies. she shared with us about her life experiences, the tough days shes been through and all. she also shared about her love life. hehe, shes cool seyy. she even asked us about ours. she didnt seemed to mind us having a relationship at this age. wee!~ and izyan actualie fell down from his chair, too engrossed i suppose. haha! and we gossiped too. she isnt that bad after all eyy. other subjects seemed fine, EXCLUDING history. goodness! i just dunnoe what to say la for history. the teacher just dont get it that we are not enjoying his lessons. people are falling asleep every now and then, and laughing sarcasticly to his lame jokes, yet he seemed like his unaware of it. gosh.

friends wise, HAIS. im only waiting for the day that we can all be together like we used to in the past. especially the FOUR of us. girl, all u think abt me is that im too sombong now, coz ive got my new friends. ur wrong seyy. i just feel like going to u, talking to you everything that uve done to me, which causes us to be like this. but i noe u too well. if i were to voice out, ud probably cant accept it, and go all bonkers and giving me the attitude and all. so id rather shut up. but please la, my patience has its limits. i hope some souls can help me get this into her head. everytime we set eyes on each other, she'll go "mira dah sombong uh skarang.". irritated and disappointed in her, id just end up replying "yerlaa yerlaa. suke hati kau la ape kau nak pikir. aku dah tk kuase.". i mean, its not like i dont treasure the friendship we had. but ive put in the most effort into it, trying to save it for the past 5 months. but korg yg didnt even try. and u guys were being too happy having new friends and company. so i decided i shud move on with life la, instead of dreading abt us. and wen ive done that, u guys came back to me. gosh! doesnt anione understand what im going thru?? (perhaps not, coz its private blog, to me.)

ok well, just now i finished watching HIKMAH 2. god! its so exciting la. i hate it wen it keeps on dragging abt wats gonna happen next. n at the last part, at the happy scene, suddenly this om hasyim came and pointing his gun to them. and the series end up with the sound of shots, but they didnt show who got shot. instead, they just said "to be continued in HIKMAH 3!!". i was like, WHAT?? theres another series?? at that point i felt like giving up. the whole series is abt backstabbing and goodness and stuffs. the only happy scene is the last episode, which will always end up with some unwanted things to happen, which leads to another series. god! biler nak game! and wan told me that there are 5 series altogther. MAK OI!! haha. i wudnt go to such extent if i were the director. heh.

so, thats abt it for my life at the moment. girl, please reflect on what uve done to me, and our friendship together with the 2 boys.

baby, you're the best part of my day. 11:49 PM

Sunday, July 08, 2007

the month isnt going well for me, i must say. i dont understand why friends always has to be my problem. lately ive been having problems with friends, from the past and the recent ones. i just cant find friends that can truely understand me, besides shila. i mean, in my 15 years of living, shila is like the only person who understands me well. i didnt hafta say aniting, she knew it. just like i know her. but sadly, the friendship didnt remain as strong as before perhaps one reason she isnt in the same class as me animore, we hardly haf anitime to spend for each other, or to be spent together. but i still do love her, if only shes aware of it.

but all these problems isnt realie a problem to me laa. just a disturbance, and tests from allah. n i wish, and hope that the friends can try to be more understanding with me, rather than just be angry or jealous or tight up for some small reasons. not pin-pointing to anione aite.

and oh, iqa slept over my house yesterday night. it was great to have her arnd, just at the right time for me to share my problems with. though she doesnt realie advises or aniting, but she has the ears, which is good enough for me. and we slept like at 3am, waking up at 5 for the toilet and went back to sleep and woke up at 7 for madrasah. god, madrasah was so sleeepy. and we actualie had a test which we cant be bothered to study. hah!

so perhaps till here. i got lots of homework to be done.

baby, you're the best part of my day. 5:40 PM

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

okae, urm. let me start the post by updating on school, then my friends, and then my life. okie dokie?

erm, school is OK. the teachers had decided to break the class into 2, so as to have a smaller class for maths. and so the so-called "weak" students, 15 of them, were made to be under ms cheng's guidance. while the rest got to be under ms lie. so far, i think ms lie is great lah. she isnt the fierce type, not the lembut-lembut type. oh, im sure u'll get what i mean.. anihow, chemistry lessons are just getting boring-er by day. and GOSH! history lessons is such a bore! MR STEVE!! I WANT YOU BACKK!!!!! and im sure the class does too. ur like the best history teacher laa. somemore, u handsome, which gives me a reason more to pay attention in class. heh. :) haha, and yesterday, i was so thinking of mr steve, that wen we were greeting mr yang, me and michelle actualie said "thank you, mr steve." instead of "thank you, mr yang." . and i swear we said it loud the 2 of us. hahahahah! SAIPEH!

okae, friends. ahh.. i hate this topic. SHE is definitely getting on my nerves. she already irritates me alot, that i can try to handle. but, what happened just now, i just hate her more. well, just like last year, we go to school together, TILL, she made frens with this classmate of hers. and since then, we stopped going to sch together. and also, she hardly even talked to me, coz of that new fren of hers. so, my dear friend, amina, decided to go to sch with me since. and it realie makes me happie to see her face in the morning. jgn kembang eh babe*. so, like a few weeks or months later, she had a fight with the new friend. and she started to come back to me. well as for me, im not that kinda person who easily accept a friend, to be my bestfriend again, especially when uve "dumped" me. so, i kinda dont-realie-care abt her. but i swear, i didnt wanna break the friendship, since im the one who had put in lots of effort into building it. i mean, what kind of a fren is she, she had a new friend, and actualie left me hanging. how do i say? urm, at the beginning of the year, my friends was only the 4 of us. so at that point, i actualie had her only. coz hasif obviously has made a new gang. and min has a life of his own with 3e3. so, when she left me, i was kinda alone. hurt.

i did took the matter seriously, confront them for a little while. but, i stopped, only when hasif told me " mira, aku rase kau kene start make new friends. sampai biler kau nak harapkn kwn2 lame? kite seme dah ader kwn baru, to be honest, aku pon dah ader." it cuts me real deep to actualie hear that from him. so, i thot, ok, fine. i'll move on. just when ive moved on, SHE starts coming back to me. but i felt that i cudnt get back to her, coz ive already cliqued with my classmates, and if i left them, wat wud they say. i did sometimes ignored her, coz im very pissed with her, realie.

so just now, in sch, i saw hasif n her. we were all abt to assemble at e quadrangle. since i saw hasif, n he said hi to me, i salam him uh. i wanted to salam her, but she was busy talking with someone else. so, i decided not to interrupt, n catch up with mina n ikah, whom is already rite infront. and then, i heard her saying "kau tgk, aksyen siaa." . then i heard hasif was saying like "maner ader? dier salam aku per. dier tk nmpk kau kot. " . n she said "aku bsar2 ginik, dier tk nmpk. kau biar betol." then, she came up to me n say "oi! aku invisible per?? " n i went, huh?? then she walked off. GAHH! wats the fucked up attitude! dont come back to me when u dont have frens. u noe im not that kinda person. its ur fault, ur the one who left me hanging n picked up the pieces by myself. u deserve it!

this post is already too long to update on my life. she suck, doesnt she? she ruined my life, didnt she? haizz.

baby, you're the best part of my day. 10:44 PM