currently in LP's macd. see, thats how desperate bad and i are to use the internet. (: hahaah. and we were bored at home anw.. so here i am, taking the opportunity that i have to blog.
so, after school, went home straight and get changed. cos i had to go for tuition's maths mock exam. OMG, people, look at just how many mock tests and exams i have to go thru. haishh. its tiring tauu. then after 4 hours and 15mins of maths, went to meet amina and shahdap. (: we hang around central for awhile, before leaving for science tuition. and even during science tuition, there was a TEST! boleh mati siakk ginikk..and so, after tuition, went home with aminnie, shahdap, and him. haahaha. i think i kinda scared him with my craziness. idk why either, but i was practically laughing, and talking crap all the way home. and he was like, "eh, u okay ke tak ni?? "
HAHAHHA! :D
well, i guess till here la people.
the week was OKAYY for me. as usual uhh. but basically, i could say its both fun and dull. fun in the sense that i could spend time with certain people alot. and dull, in the sense that, nothing actually goes my way at the end of the day.
ikah and i, have been going thru somewhat same situations since last week. hey, now then i realise, it has been one week eh ikah? and nothing gets better for us aye.. tskk. our lives goes on like a roller coaster. we could be jumping for joy, rolling on the floor laughing at stupid jokes people make or do. but at a split second, we could also break down and cry or go emo and stuffs.
ikah, know what? i really need u right now. i need a hug seh ikaahh. i know u do too. (: id always be there for you okay dear? goes to you too aminnie.
i feel so confused with what been going on. it suck u know, this things happening to me, at this point of time of the year. tskk.
its been 2 weeks since we've last met, and 10days that we've been in never-ending-arguements. nothing gets better for us, or me. idk about you. thats the first prob. 2ndly, 2 days ago, i just officially broke someone's heart, i guess. ive known him for like what, 7 months now? yeahh. and he told me, 2 days ago, that hes backing off, cos he sees that i have a nice life with the other guy. -.- being in never ending arguements are nice to u eyy.. ? 3rdly, another one just somewhat confessed to me that he liked me, and is starting to love me. =/
i know whats in ur head, "mampos. rabak siakk miraa! giler pe!"
but what can i do? its not like im the one who attracts them to me. i mean, they're the one who are attracted to me. get it? i cannot stop someone from liking me, or loving me. i tried my best to divide my time for all 3, but im just a human. i make mistakes, and i tend to forget about the other when im with another. shitman, i sound like a toot. i swear all this is not what i want.
nazrul, im sorry for what happened to us. and im sorry ive neglected u. but i guess the love wasnt there animre. and i guess uve guessed my msn nick, "i really dont feel the way i once felt about you.", was referring to you. im really sorry. ur in poly now, so i guess its not too late to start anew life? theres many girls who are waayy better than me out there, esp in NP, like what my cousin, "ader ramai hot chicks!" kan nabil kan?? suke dier.. hahaha. i want us to remained as just goodfriends, but i guess ur not in favour of that idea? idk laa, up to you. but to me, being my goodfriend is actually better than being my bf. :D cos i treat my friends better than my bf. get it? friends always comes first maa. and i prioritise friends first. so yeahh. its okay if u dont wna be my friend even. ur lost, not exactly mine. =/
okayokay, so yeah. basically, with all thats happening to me, all at one period of time. i cannot think properly, and i cannot make wise decisions at this point of time. and darn it, 12may is not far away. gaahhh! i know i promised, but can we push the date forward? please? i really got so many things on my head now, i really cannot think straight. and i wouldnt wna be making a mistake in my decisions. i want the best for us, whoever it is, and for me. this suck right, people? tskk. :(
dah laaa. enough is enough laa. i dont want to think about it animre. this arguements, confessions and heart-breaking stuffs are making me soooo sick and tired of everything. i dont even know if i wna end it ALL. i dont know, i really dont. =/ and you, if u cant keep ur mouth shut, then dont expect me to pour out to u animre abt in of my stuffs. after telling u, u went and confront him. thanks eh! bodoh pe sehh. tskk, binget laa! ur not the only one that i have to think about! theres other two, now one. and ive got school, mom, parents, family to think about! ur not my only problem, u paham takk??!?!?! tsskkk!
bye uhh people.
take care.
and dont mind if u have difficulties trying to reach me, cos now, im off-ing my phone once in a while, or keep it to silent mode. idk, i just feel like needing some time alone. but a great listening ear at the same time. idk laaa. see how confused i am? i dont even know what im talking. tskk.
* anw, nazrul, i dedicate "say goodbye, by chris brown" to you. ahaha, mira bustard siakk. orang dah sedih2, patah hati, maseh nk dedicate2. :p siak betol. =/ im sorry once again.
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school was fine. but P.E was great. (: kan ikah? haha. the class somewhat had 2 free periods cos P.E cant go on, due to the rain. and the hall was filled with chairs for tmr's commendation day. so yeahhh. the boys was sitting in their own groups, and the girls sat together, but doing their own things. then suddenly ikah turned to me and say:and with that, i already knew what she meant. so yeah, we both then got our butts up and moved 2 rows front. (: thenn, we started talking, like theres no tmr. and she pours everything to me, and i did too. it seemed like both of us was going through the same thing, breaking up. but hers was official. whilst mine, idk how to say. heh. anw, me and him are fine again. so yeahh. :D
actually, ikah and i wanted to talk more, but 2 periods was all we had. haha. perhaps next time eh ikah? :D iloveyou! thanks for listening, and sharing ur stories with me. (: i appreciate it lots. really i do.
anw, idk since when, but my class has been totally into playing scissors-paper-stone. cute right! hahah. biase uhh. its those games that who lose, the hand would be slapped.. hahaha. ikah and i played that in between our talks. standard uh, bloodshots appeared soon after. hahaha. basically, today was based on me and ikah. but that doesnt mean we forget amina. its more like amina forget us, cos during p.e she was tooo engrossed in reading that book, forgot the title. heh. :D
iloveamina&atikah.<3
soyeahh, till here.
take care people. (:
* im super glad that ur back to the guy that i once knew. and i hope u stay that way. cos i dont think i can bear another bullshit like this. merana seh orang nyer hidop. all thanks to you la kan. but, lets put those as our past. jgn sebot2 lagi okay? :D
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i knew from long time ago that friends are the most important people in my life, after my family. but only now that i see it, practically. ive been feeling down for the past two days. and also was kinda sick yesterday. but with the presence of my friends, even the upset-est person on earth cant feel any happier. get it?okayokay, the purpose of this post? nothing to be exact, just wna let my friends out there know that they are reallyreally superduper appreciated by me. (: seriously, without them, i think i wudve been having the thoughts of suicides or some crapshit like that.
THANKS YA'LL! :D
to those who have always been there for me, who never failed to make me smile, even though its a sarcastic ones at times, but atleast u guys tried, and thats what most important. (: to be precise, they're amina, atikah, michelle, and nabilah. BUT, i still do wna thank those who had to entertain my PMSes, moodswings, and especially my retardedness ; alicia, sandra, aisha, dyana, lammie. and basically, to the rest of 4e4. can? :D haha.
though, i still wna thank ; weixin, lynnie, martha, steffie, alisa, aliah, ain, nabil, junwei, zadkiel, jeremy. from what i can remember, these people are the ones whom actually tolerated my nonsense, crapiness, and moodswings the most, since they're not from my class. and for that, I THANK YOU GUYS HOR.
i think im getting out of point here. but anw, those who arent stated in the message above, please do not be disheartened. i just cant squeeze my brains hard enough to remember every single one. sorry.
and, MARTHA! this girl ehh.. hahaha. has been my partner for like what, 2 years? and unfortunately we were brought apart cos we were appointed to different classes of different courses. and for that, the bond actually broke up, and we were drifted apart. sadly. BUT, that didnt break our friendship laa. aiyoo. CHOY. we're still talking, and contacting, kan martha kan darling? :D
its really funny and cute, if we were to reminisce bout what we had done for 2 years, 2 years ago eh martha? hahah. i still remember those days when we could just sit on our sits, and just talk all the way from 7.35 till 1.45pm! haha. then theres a time when we would irritate the people arnd us with our singing, during lessons some more! hahaha! andand, do u remember, a time when mr rahim scolded us, for not listening to his lessons?
"wipe that stupid ugly smiles from ur faces!"
hahaha!
oh, theres another time, where we would just ignore mr ang's instructions together. wait, do u even still remember who that guy is? hes the nervous and quiet science teacher, who cant teach at all? remember? hahahah. i remember we would just do our own stuff together while he was teaching, and hand in our workbook, UNDONE. omg. boy, were we naughty back then! haha. tskk tskk. hahaha.
theres still more to list down laa right martha. but then, that would require me to stay up the whole night and day for one year seh! hahaha. cheyy, bedek uhh. :p haha.
simply said laa martha, I MISS YOU LIKE SHIT! (:
till here peeps.
take care.
* and you boy, i dont know whats wrong with you. i told u his name. but ur attitude still remained the same. i dont know what wrong did i do again, to make u seemed like WE dont bother u animre. and i understand that ur love for me has lessen aye? im not quite sure if mine has too. but i still love you. just hoping that u could just be the faisal i once knew. cos i dont think i like the one u are now. :/ idk. im confused too.
tskk, uve really changed.
sir came in, and took a pic of us. :D hehehe. and we took it, while the others still running around like some mad people, and we were in the midst of hearing the screaming of alisa's and chunkai's. HAHAHA! :p
my team, and the top scorer, JELLY LOW. (:
and last but not least, a group photo of my beloved troop. (: theres never a day when i didnt have fun with their presence. really.
basically, thats all i wna update about, the fun i had during laser quest. people out there, u guys should really go and try the game out. its super fun, trust me. (:
till here people.
ive got fnn coursework to complete.
and im nowhere close to that word, complete. heh.
take care. (:
and HORTON is somewhere in the sky.. if u get what i mean.
basically, i think i really have found my new hobby and interest now, PHOTOGRAPHY. i knew long time ago, that i love taking pictures. but only now then i realised. & im grateful enough for having a handphone that has a 2.0megapixel as a feature. even tho its kinda pathetic, but i still managed to take beautiful scenic pictures with it, like those pics of the skies. (:
wudnt it be great if i could own proper equipments to take photos with? hmm...
so till here peeps.
ive updated enough. heh.
till next time,
take care. (:
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