- You made me special ;

Thursday, June 28, 2007

okie dokie. urm, i have a new history teacher. n i swear, he is sooooo damn kental. he hasnt even started on ani topics yet after 3 periods. so much for the introduction. we gotta move on cher!! mr steve!! i miss u already!! :( please come back laa. i promise i'll study very hard n feel REMORSE for u la okae??

3e4, u wud noe wat i meant by remorse. hehd.

so, school is going fine. but the lessons somehow doesnt interests me animore. history and chemistry just makes me wanna fall asleep. i wonder why. ouh, n malay lessons just got worst coz cikgu hanim change our sits. gahh! i dont like to sit beside saiful laa! so boring!! IZYAN!! i miss you and ur weirdness!! argh!! classmates are like so happy with their new sits.

gtg. tata.

baby, you're the best part of my day. 10:56 PM

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

hello hello.. haha. urm, yeap, its been some time since i last post. not realie busy but just couldnt find the time to post, tats all. the holidays arent spent well. homework are done last minute, so theres no quality there. hmm, overall, it wasnt such a waste aniwae. i did haf some work done and some outings that are just as sweet as memories. such phrase?? haha. LAME.

perhaps, life has been OK for me. theres still the downs. but im sure i still can hold on to it. theres just this one fact that i cant seemed to accept. it is that the 3 of them went to lepak, during one of the holidays, without ajak-ing me!! wat is happening to the world sey?? in the past, without ani one of us around, it just wont seem right. but now, the thought isnt in their stoopid minds. gahh! great friends i haf eyy. boy, am i so lucky. sheesh!

well, i was thinking perhaps ive gotta start being a good girl for this new semester. but i just dunnoe how. mum has been nagging n nagging to study. irritating la sey. i noe im suppose to study, but there shud be breaks here and there right??? nobodie wants to study 24 hours straight kan.

and she still is nagging. so till here, TATA.

baby, you're the best part of my day. 11:55 PM

Saturday, June 16, 2007

i dont care wat u think, honestly. i believe u shud noe by now, after 15 years, how to differenciate whether im in the mood or when im not. i think, as an older sister, u shud be understanding my body language. i dont understand why u seemed not to understand it. i didnt wanna call u an irritant or someting like that, but u made me to, coz u dont seemed to understand that im starting to get irritated by u, and i did gave warnings to get away. look, my days haf been hard alright. ive got problems all around my waist. n i was so expecting u to understand that i was in deep thoughts for my problems when i gave u my irritated body language, when u started to sit beside me on the couch and giving me hugs n stuffs. i dunnoe whether ur realie clueless, or ur just trying to get my attention or someting. if u want an apology, IM SORRY. give me a few more days to get back to myself and overcome all these bulls my friends has land me. just so u noe, its not easy.

baby, you're the best part of my day. 1:15 AM

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

ouhkae.. so i had maths remedial just now morning. then in the noon, i went to accompany aliah to search pressies for her guy. during our outing together, she somehow blurted that during the holidays, she, min and hasif went out for awhile to lepaks. she said that after some time wen i told her that i dun haf ani hopes for us being together forever. it strucked me the moment she told me they went to lepak together. i mean, how come i wasnt aware of it?? how come i didnt get ani invitation for it?? u realie cant imagine how hurt n disappointed i was to hear those words from her mouth. i was realie expecting us to be together one day during the holidays. but without me knowing, they already had an outing earlier. aliah told me she smsed me, but I SWEAR i didnt receive ani msgs from u back then babe.

i had the hopes with me people. i had. n the least u 3 can do was to make the effort to invite me. even if it was just a short lepak, i wud be more than happy to hear ur invites. even if you guys knew i probably cannot make it, making the effort to think of it wud be more than enough for me guys. it hurts. do u guys realie dont need me around animore?? u guys didnt even looked happy wen we were out at downtown n PR park for my bdae. it hurts to actualie see that. insincerity. i still remember those words wen u guys actualie pleaded me to tag along for those lepak "sessions". i, of course am not expecting u guys to do just the same, but the least i wud appreciate was the thought. that is wat matters most to me. but noe wat? it doesnt matter la, its over aniwae. keep it up if u guys dont mind. it will definitely tell me that u guys dont need me animore, n thus i wont be hurt. ARGH!

baby, you're the best part of my day. 10:44 PM

Monday, June 04, 2007

hey hey. once again, i felt like my holidaes arent spent well. i just cant keep myself at home doing atleast some researches for my fnn coursework. GAHH! i was out again todae to iqa's house to get my specs, and of course spent a few hours there playing games and watching tv. i thought tmr i cud be free, excluding my dental appointment, but nooo! aiz suggested i follow her to chinatown to accompany her to fetch her garskin, for her laptop. i cant possibly say no to that. going out with her is hell lot fun babe! shes realie someone whom you want to be with, regardless if ur mood just doesnt seemed right. shes just the best kakak sdare. :) rock on girl! and then on wednesday, im off to wild2 wet with cousins. OUT AGAIN! argh!!

perhaps my next 2 weeks wud be the days for me to finish up my stuffs. darn it la. i hate homework! PERHAPS. :)

baby, you're the best part of my day. 11:29 PM

Sunday, June 03, 2007

hoho! hmm, i just came back from a small shopping spree with kakak, together with aiz n iqa. but we met up with abg K, n then went to the mosque. after that we started to shop again. :) all in all, it was fun laa. BUT, tiring. heheh.

i think im spending my holidaes wisely, -NOT! it seems like im going out everyday! am i forgetting someting?, that ive got lots n lots of work to do?? GOSH! ive gotta start planning seyy. but how, theres just interesting and fun offers for me everyday, i can hardly say no to it. argh! i hate homework! n exams! n long term holidaes! GAHH!

well i think i wud take my leave now. its already 12 in the morning, and im feeling so exhausted right now. so yeah. u people take care aites!

TATA!

baby, you're the best part of my day. 11:23 PM

Friday, June 01, 2007

well, hello there. im back at home from camp, 2 days ago. :) wanted to update but the mind just cudnt remember. soo, the camp was kinda fun, but everybody agreed having it in school wud be much more better. of course la, theres more convienience there. and the duty QM was definitely hard alrite. but i didnt made a mess out of it and managed to pull it through. YAY! n so mdm ng wasnt fuming. WEE!~ mistakes are done, but it wasnt bad. glad to noe tat. she was basically praising my batch and stuff. i think overall we did an excellent job.

i somehow love this camp the most in my whole life. the reason was because my batch people just gets along so well, that we were practically more then just frens. we are more like sisters. the love we showered for each other was too much that even words cant describe it. n im happy for us. during the COH, we had mostly touching comments from mdm ng n also the 4 juniors, we actualie had a group hug after that, n some tears were shed among us. that was like the most memorable thing ever. GOSH, I SO LOVE GVGG BATCH 2007. how i wish it could last forever. but im afraid all this will end once we stepped down next year. :(

june holiday has been ok so far. ive been going out almost everyday for now. perhaps i wont be in the future. i actualie want to start working on my assignments n courseworks. but activities by activities just keeps on flowing in. hehehe. but then again, going out=money. which is what that im lacking most of the time. till here then.

mira loves weixin, lynn, alisa, stefanie, michelle & priscilla. they rock my lonely days, and they gave me the sense of belonging wherever and whenever i am. ROCK ON GIRLS!

but also not forgetting: amina & atikah. they gave me the reasons to smile each day. ROCK ON BABES!

baby, you're the best part of my day. 9:39 PM