Friday, July 13, 2007
updates updates updates.12.07.07:for this week, we had guides on thursday, instead of the usual friday. dont ask me why, im clueless too. anihow, it seemed like an urgent meeting, and sure is. weixin wanted to gather the sisters. the meeting was all about reflecting on ourselves, an d also us committing to guides, confessions on how we think guides is and stuffs like that. the meeting somehow was the 1st that got most of us emo-ed. weixin, nisa, valarie, me, and some other cried. its just too touching/sad laa. well the fact is that, we heard that the principal wants us to combine unit with the scouts, which we all totalie protest. coz we personally believe that we shud haf our own cca, and not ruled by them. mr.principal even sanngup to pay the girl scouts uniform for us. why seyy? and i heard from alisa too, that the HQ didnt like our unit. why seyy?? we had been wondering why other schs had more badges than us. and the answer i heard was, other schs was trained by the HQ, while my unit was only trained by teachers. thats why we got few badges. why seyy? how can the HQ possibly hate us? we are just a small group of people.. hmm.. wonders wonders wonders.. and oh, my heart was crushed TWICE todae. goodness! i saw mr.N in the canteen, with another girl. they seemed like matair la, though they didnt kissed or hughug or aniting like that. just seeing them together makes me so confident that they are a couple! argh! coz they arent even closely connected, and seeing them together must have meant someting. they cant possibly be cousins, cause their races doesnt match at all. mr.N has the accent of orang putih, and is in tech class, and in NCC. while this girl has chinese blood, i suppose, is in express class, and is in BAND. so they arent connected at all! dammit la, i missed my chance. n then after sch, i saw HIM and her. she is like purposely making me feel jealous or someting. eh, bodoh, i dont care la. though he crushed my heart, it wasnt his fault, coz i didnt make him aware of it. ur just lucky that u got him as ur bf. but i got him as my bestfren, which is way better. i got the freedom, PLUS, him. when u, only got him, but not realie the freedom. too bad. 13.07.07:urmm, school is going fine, for some subjects only i supposed. fnn was fun laa. we actualie slacked alot with mdm zaidah, but we still was doing our work. get it? theres this one period wen we are supposed to discuss about tests and all, but it turned out to be a reflection session. both on life and studies. she shared with us about her life experiences, the tough days shes been through and all. she also shared about her love life. hehe, shes cool seyy. she even asked us about ours. she didnt seemed to mind us having a relationship at this age. wee!~ and izyan actualie fell down from his chair, too engrossed i suppose. haha! and we gossiped too. she isnt that bad after all eyy. other subjects seemed fine, EXCLUDING history. goodness! i just dunnoe what to say la for history. the teacher just dont get it that we are not enjoying his lessons. people are falling asleep every now and then, and laughing sarcasticly to his lame jokes, yet he seemed like his unaware of it. gosh.friends wise, HAIS. im only waiting for the day that we can all be together like we used to in the past. especially the FOUR of us. girl, all u think abt me is that im too sombong now, coz ive got my new friends. ur wrong seyy. i just feel like going to u, talking to you everything that uve done to me, which causes us to be like this. but i noe u too well. if i were to voice out, ud probably cant accept it, and go all bonkers and giving me the attitude and all. so id rather shut up. but please la, my patience has its limits. i hope some souls can help me get this into her head. everytime we set eyes on each other, she'll go "mira dah sombong uh skarang.". irritated and disappointed in her, id just end up replying "yerlaa yerlaa. suke hati kau la ape kau nak pikir. aku dah tk kuase.". i mean, its not like i dont treasure the friendship we had. but ive put in the most effort into it, trying to save it for the past 5 months. but korg yg didnt even try. and u guys were being too happy having new friends and company. so i decided i shud move on with life la, instead of dreading abt us. and wen ive done that, u guys came back to me. gosh! doesnt anione understand what im going thru?? (perhaps not, coz its private blog, to me.)ok well, just now i finished watching HIKMAH 2. god! its so exciting la. i hate it wen it keeps on dragging abt wats gonna happen next. n at the last part, at the happy scene, suddenly this om hasyim came and pointing his gun to them. and the series end up with the sound of shots, but they didnt show who got shot. instead, they just said "to be continued in HIKMAH 3!!". i was like, WHAT?? theres another series?? at that point i felt like giving up. the whole series is abt backstabbing and goodness and stuffs. the only happy scene is the last episode, which will always end up with some unwanted things to happen, which leads to another series. god! biler nak game! and wan told me that there are 5 series altogther. MAK OI!! haha. i wudnt go to such extent if i were the director. heh.so, thats abt it for my life at the moment. girl, please reflect on what uve done to me, and our friendship together with the 2 boys. baby, you're the best part of my day.
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