Thursday, April 24, 2008
currently having fnn lesson. internet connection has been down, for dk what reasons. shitman. tskk. its okay, i shall grab this opportunity to blog what i can kays.
basically, theres lots that has been going through my life. but thanks to the internet, ive lost count of what it is. heh. but i promise, when the internet connection is all up and good to go with, id upload the pics okays. (:
anw, ive been thinking, but this is random la. i somewhat feel that, guys, if uve ever been in hugehuge arguments with ur girls, the biggest mistake u can ever do to ur relationship is to show them that it doesnt bother u. tau? and its even worst if u leave the case hanging for long period of time. because, to me la, if u show that u cant be bothered, it shows me that i shant be bothered either. and idk why, but if i start to act that way, the love actually would eventually fade. but let me emphasize, FADE, not gone. so yeahh. how do i make myself clear of that statement eh? its like.. u guys are already in arguments.. and u showed her just "how much u love her and treasure her", by not bothering abt the matter.. and it doesnt helps the feelings to come back if u stopped contacting her, even if its just for afew days or nights. really. cos thats what i feel.
idk why, but ive been feeling kinda bad and guilty for nazzy. theres a saying, "u never know what u had, until uve lost it..". and i think that saying fits me well. since he left, theres a sense of missing him. but i dont often thought of him when hes around. and with what i have to go thru with the other one, sometimes theres a feeling of regret in me. its like, how stupid can i be, to leave the guy i know for almost 8months, for another guy that i barely know for 2 months. its like, what the heck was i thinking?? :/ and 2 days ago, i was reading all the saved conversations i once had with him, and his msgs that he sent me back when we were still contacting.. it actually brought tears to my eyes mann.. its very sad u knoww.. and the computer busted, played the song "say goodbye" at the background. which made me feel even more sad.
but i guess now its too late to even say that i want him back right.. i shall just move on. i dont think i even want to have any bfs for now. i know i shouldnt too. so yeahh, sisters, stop nagging at me. im already cutting down okay! (: i shall just remain it all at a contacting stage okayy?? pfft. hah!
studies wise, i think im doing fine again. im starting to cope with everything again. and im trying to start back my studying time, cos MYE is super damn close. but it seems like theres revision class everyday now, till superlate, idk what time. its always unsure. and teachers play a big role by telling us last minute. thanks eh chers. NOT. haha. :D
okie dokies laa. i guess this is just what i wna say. when the internet is going on smoothly again, i shall update more. gtg. byebye. take care peeps. (:
baby, you're the best part of my day.
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